Thinking a lot atm about the choices we make in life and how they're all around us. Sometimes I even think about the choices we DON'T make yet still affect us.
I suppose it's just my age. I'm 17 and I'm starting my second year of College.
These are some of the choices I face:
Do I go the gym or do I not bother and snack on chocolate?
Do I get some much needed relaxation or do I work a bit harder on my work?
Do I apply to this university or that university?
Do I get the bus to college or do I walk?
I won't even start on choosing what to where..
In all honesty it's scary when I think about the consequences of making these choices. I'm a Performing Arts student so it's really important to keep fit but sometimes I'm just not in the mood to go to the gym and should I really risk my happiness (I do about three hours of dance/workout a week plus walking). I know I should be working because the grades aren't going to get themselves and i am doing ALOT this year ( A BTEC National Diploma, Film Studies A Level and an Extended Project, that's a grand equivalent of four and a half A Levels!!!) but I also know I have a very good habit of letting myself get stressed out completely which is not very good for my work at all. Universities.. Well I'll be honest I'm fairly certain of where I'm applying to, thing is am i making the right choices? Where I can I'm doing Drama with something like Arts Management or Events Management but these course are rare so quite often I'm looking at just drama.. where's that going to get me???? I don't want to make a mess of my life but what's the point in studying something which doesn't interest me? At least that last choice is simple.. Rush Hour I walk, non- rush hour i bus. Gets me there prompt but i largely find myself being healthy and good for the environment (hooray 5 *'s for me!).
The other thing I do recently is look back and think about choices i've made and I 've decided something. In my life I must never regret events and choices in my life. I haven't had it easy BUT I wouldn't be who I am now if i hadn't and I want to be comfortable with myself and who I am.
Now I'm making a choice.. to focus on my university search and finish this insane rambling.
PEACE!
ox
